Thursday, September 02, 2010
im at changi chalet now.
nsrcc.
they are all playing mahjong now.
so i thought i should update my blog a bit.
well.
kinda emo for these past few days.
what should i say leh?
im emo fuck for this whole week loh.
bad mood.
cranky.
bitch.
whatever you want to call me lah.
okay.
i dont quite understand the reason why i emo.
i mean all the while i knew that we are impossible.
so i suppose i did not harp onto any hope as well.
but why when she suddenly stopped talking to me then i will feel emo leh?
i want to know the reason also.
im just being mind fucked the whole week.
keep thinking keep thinking keep thinking.
keep thinking of her.
i knew she wont like me.
i knew we can at best be friends.
but why do i still emo leh?
my friends say she is toying me.
my friends say i should stop talking to her.
but hey!
even though we cant be together that does not mean we are not friends anymore right.
some more we used to be quite close in secondary school.
and she is not toying me lah!
i mean she made it clear to me that she will not like me already.
so there isnt any toying in that sense.
right?
my emo-ness is solely my own problem.
in any ways it is never her fault.
it is my own emotion that is keep on clinging onto her.
i guess i need to cool down a bit.
just like the last time.
i need a little bit of time.
one or two weeks maybe.
anyway.
i think she's just too irresistable hahas.
nsrcc.
they are all playing mahjong now.
so i thought i should update my blog a bit.
well.
kinda emo for these past few days.
what should i say leh?
im emo fuck for this whole week loh.
bad mood.
cranky.
bitch.
whatever you want to call me lah.
okay.
i dont quite understand the reason why i emo.
i mean all the while i knew that we are impossible.
so i suppose i did not harp onto any hope as well.
but why when she suddenly stopped talking to me then i will feel emo leh?
i want to know the reason also.
im just being mind fucked the whole week.
keep thinking keep thinking keep thinking.
keep thinking of her.
i knew she wont like me.
i knew we can at best be friends.
but why do i still emo leh?
my friends say she is toying me.
my friends say i should stop talking to her.
but hey!
even though we cant be together that does not mean we are not friends anymore right.
some more we used to be quite close in secondary school.
and she is not toying me lah!
i mean she made it clear to me that she will not like me already.
so there isnt any toying in that sense.
right?
my emo-ness is solely my own problem.
in any ways it is never her fault.
it is my own emotion that is keep on clinging onto her.
i guess i need to cool down a bit.
just like the last time.
i need a little bit of time.
one or two weeks maybe.
anyway.
i think she's just too irresistable hahas.