Sunday, October 22, 2006

the first one is alex. he broke his promise. i hate his way of dealing with stuffs. i hate his attitude. though he broke his promise, he kept denying it. i asked him y did he break his promise, he replied as though he did nth wrong. oh my god!! i could not provide with the evident cos i promised the person, who accidentally told mi alex told him/her wat happened, i will not sae out hu told mi tat alex did not keep his promise. den alex's attitude was horrible omg. it was as though i anyhow sae a blame and pushed it onto his head. let us analyse alex. if i dunoe tat u broke the promise, wud i ask u tat question? how come u jus cant be more responsible? y mus u break the promise? it is not everything tat u can tell to ur 'family' de OKAY!!! we promised tat all information shudd be kept withing tat 4 walls, yet u went to tell another person. its not tat i dun trust tat person or neither m i afraid tat person will leak out anything. but its the trust u see?! i tot i cud trust u, and yet, u betrayed us. not onli mi, but the 3 of us. if u r thinking tat i m jus too work up. let's tink abt it tis way. wat if i promised u tat i will not tell anyone abt ur secret, but i went telling some one tat i trusted most. u see the point? the problem lies on u. u shudd not hav told someone abt the stuff at all from the start!! u showed mi ur true self. thank you alex!!

next, i m veri angry with myself. i hated myself. i dun like e way i m handling some stuff. i shudd keep my mouth shut from now on. i shud tink twice before i do anything. i shud tink twice before i ask anything. sometimes i was wondering, how come i did not tink of the consequences and i took my actions or ask any questions. for eg, alex case (above). i tink i shudd analyse one's character thoroughly before doing anything. i was aso veri angry with myself tat i m so straightforward. both in the way i tink and i handle stuff. sometimes i wud tink a lot. but jus now i was chatting with someone and i found out tat i wasnt tinking deep enuf. i asked tat person a kinda sensitive question tat wud probably hurt both of us. i didnt tink of tat!! in the end i dunoe if i had hurt tat person, but i tink i hurt myself cos of my stupidity.

lastly, i m veri angry her. she didnt noe how to take care of herself. she was sick for many days. she waited till ytd(sat) den she go to see a doctor. sigh. den she still went to buy fried food to eat, and ended up coughing and coughing. she felt terrible (i asked her), so i asked her to go eat pi pa gao (i dunoe wat does it call in eng) and guess wat she sae. she sae she was lazy to move. argh!! she reali dunoe how to take care of herself. sigh.

i asked hakim send mi a pic tat day, and i forgot to thx him. thank you hakim=]